Janice Thong

Pretty much u shaped my 2015 .

Although I am suffering right now ,

But i will get over this someday . just.. someday




The first day i met you .

Was in class , i didn't pay any extra attention to people like you

cause you are just so blank .

I didn't even ask your name .

As days goes on ,

We eventually become friends like it will be awkward not knowing people from class

We got along pretty fair and i found out that you are a really good and interesting person .

I want to get to know you more , more n more .

But not as a lover , as a friend .




We didn't take long time for that .





At the 2nd sem ,

I don't remember what makes us closer n closer ,

I remember calling her brother ,

Cause she really is one to me

We end up became brothers like different gender ,

We share laughter , sorrow together .

It's the first time i experience i really have a best friend .

Because all along most of them are fake , or gone . or dissapear whatever .

I find out she is a really amazing girl ,

And her really nice personalities is super natural .

I just like being with her .

It justs feel comfortable .

It's feel like there no problem at all when you hang out with her .

That's the feel she gave .







At the 3rd sem is where all came differently ,

I fall in love with you .

Yeah ,

Big mistakes , but i never regret it .

Cause any guy will fall in love with her .

It's where i felt most comfortable with .

I pretty much tell her whats my mind ,

But she take me only as a brother ,

Which i already see this coming but it hurts hell .

I just dont know why ,

The pain i took make me a whole different character of myself .

I can feel myself changing already ...


She's not even my type , but i like her .

She's not even my taste , but i like her .

She's not even my freaking anything , but i just like her .


She's mean world now , i have never been so serious in love before ,

Maybe it's a sign I am growing up .

That's good ... and bad at the same time .



I don't know how i can continue to fake my smile infront of you anymore ,

I really don't have the strength to do it anymore ,

Maybe alot people don't understand the pain ,

They thought it just something I am exaggerating .

Watever man , it's not you , it's me I am feeling .

Anyhow you say you understand , you don't .



I know you been going out with that guy lately ,

Now u trying to do without posting up in media ,

I also heard that ,

That guy moved your heart alot time ,

And travel with you alot ,

And do alot things for you .

I admit i am pretty sad about it ,

But you are happy about it then go for it ,

I will never stop you ,

No , i can't stop you cause it's your life .

I am very sure the amount of things i done ,

He's never catching up .

But thing's turn out become awkward and u kind of avoiding me ,

Yeah , maybe he overtake me soon .


I am quite sad that you actually cared that , who sit beside me or behind in my car ,

I am really really hurt by that ,

I actually heard you say , i dont want sit infront .

When i hurt that , i almost cried but i try not to do infront of you guys .

We are not brother anymore is it?

Yeah , it's better off that way i guess .

Maybe our relationship cannot be mend anymore , idk ,

It seems drowning to me .

I don't have the rope ,

You do , but you choose to ignore the way .

But it's okay .

Fate let us be that way .


We maybe from different world ,

But we already cross path .

For once ,

So thank you for everything you brings.

So now i understand

What peoples says ,

Some people can stay in your heart ,

But not in your life .

I do now .



You are one in a million girl ,

Don't live millions life ,

Live yours .



I am putting my memories here ,

But you will never see it .

So that one day i came back to blog ,

I able to see what i gone thru with you .

Sem 2 , 2 weeks before finals at Kopitiam 

Sem 2 final chemistry .

You had access to my phone , take pic randomly 

It's the ugliest moment .

The first time you belanja me , Tous les JOUR at bukit bintang 

Cho cho chicken with Wendy Low 

Nana green tea , not studying 

The craziest moment .

You really look mature 

You took picture of me . 

Starbuck 1am . OK.

You beg me to eat this weird tongsui shop at Wangsa Maju and then you selfie yourself . 

Good la 

Sem 3 final in reading room , nothing to say , just look at your eyes 

We went shopping , and i think this is your cutest outfit . 

Once friend , forever friend .

Real

Love ,

Is always easy to fall in love ,

But hard to leave .

U just got to move on and find back yourself before u lost your way .

That's life

Paper Towns

Once u go to Paper Towns ,
You will never come back .  I like that .

The movie is alot different than the book

But overall is okay for me .

I just hate the ending for both movie and the movie together .

I hate u JOHN GREEN .

I really like Margo ,

Her nature personalities , charmness ,

I just like it all .

Many peoples give me comment that the actress is not pretty ,

But hey man ,

She's awesome to me even though she's not that hot .

She just so natural .

Don't have any bogus part in her .

I have a lot of thought when i watch this movie actually ,

Just make me thought ,

I do so much for others , will they do the same ?

Questions remains question ..

Obstacle

Sad sad world we are in ,

Everyone struggle for money and power .


Money creates crimes , war , and shit status .

And everyone loves it .

Try to convince me that you don't need it .

You need it for every single shit thing in this world .


For all i know , salary is taking over passion in choosing career .

It's a bitter thing for us all .

The new generation and next and again and again .


I wonder what kind of life i be in , in the next 10 years .

A sorrowful one or a pleased one ?

Back to Self

Everyone has his own love story .

No matter happy ending or other way , it's still a story to remember .

I,myself also have my own story .

But mine don't have it's actual ending .


I been searching for my own full stop for this love story ,
But it haunt me for the continuous suffering .

I admit for this all , I really love this girl .
But ,
What she felt of me is different .

This girl has created a space to fill memories for me .

Maybe that all is not this girl's precious moment .
But to me , it is .

I already reach a point where climax is not able to come to light .
A story with no peak and no ending ,
How pathetic for me .

If there is a full stop or ending ,
Please do tell me how .



My heart now just void .
It's just endless space .

For the time we spend ,
without clues or ideas of us going where ,
It's just so fun .

It's just something to explore what we might not know .

The laughter we spend ,
Ransom.

The sorrow we share ,
Gold .

For all the memories this girl gave ,
I am much obliged to you .


I already know what i have to do .
Not for the sake of this girl ,
For Self .

FSB14M1B

Time passed so fast that I actually finishing my Foundation life in few more days , ( IF I PASS)

I can't describe how i felt bout it because this mixed feeling is up n down at the same time .
I actually wrote this cause i got sick today .
Making it hard for me to really express to everyone .

My first thought is I'm losing my friends .
I know we could like meet up again but what chance we have to like everyone is there ? everyone is good enough to gather again . That's just something we can't make it up even you guys keep saying we will .
Not trying to be negative but it's just hard for me to leave you guys now .
It's been better than my secondary life and i really enjoyed with you guys .
You guys shaped my 18-19th life .
Its been a pleasure to meet you guys .
I wish the best to everyone n everyone be succcessful in any path they take in future .
What keep us together is our memories back in our foundation life , although we only like 1 year together but it's the best year .

Wendy , Lionel , Yi Xiang , Yion , Wind, Xiu Qin n others that is close to me ,
Thank you for everything you guys done for me
You guys may be idiots sometimes but you are the best in term of friendship .
I thank god for making me meet you guys .
I know Lionel is like brother to me last time , i appreciate it yes for whatever he done for me .
I thank you for that , but it's not that i dont want to be friend with you anymore .
Is the attitude of yours i dont want to be friend with .
The day with you is fun , but your attitude is i can't cope with .
You don't want to apologize its ok , you just have to apologize thru your actions .

Wendy ,
I may not know you the most but you are like my Older sister .
like somehow very protective
I know some peoples were just saying I'm sticking to girls , but i don't give a shit .
I stick to whoever i feel comfortable with .
N i feel very comfortable around you .
You gave advices thru voicenote is somehow annoying but comforting haha .
You give a straight answer for what i need to hear .
Thank you for everything .

Yi Xiang n Wind ,
Hi there , u both have the worst temper in the class i believe haha .
But you guys have a kind heart that normally people dont have .
I like the way you guys always fight in the class somehow it's funny .
Sorry for not helping out cause it's too funny to break it up . Haha
You guys help a lot too , n always ready to listen to my thoughts .
I really want to tell you guys that i really appreciate it alot .
Thank you .

Yion
Yion u been a great help to me , n know alot of my secrets that you will not reveal it out .
You always listen up to what i really want to say and give advices that really link to my style .
I think you have the best temper in class i guess .
You can always find me if you have problems yo , but you don't look like you have any shitty problem at all hahah.

Kenn n Yian
You both are the greatest assholes in the class . I call it assjoker .
I dont't know what to say to you guys but thank you hahaha.
I don't have much thing to say to you guys .
N Kenn , sorry for the misunderstanding last time .
It's my fault somehow .

Xiu Qin
Hi there , thank you for your kindness like never got angry to me before .
WAIT , you actually did once .
You actually got angry at me at Redang for i didn't start off with the idea just for a pair of slipper !
Haha
Thank you you help me most in term of homework , you'll never say no , unless it's 10pm onwards . ( Your bed time freaking sleeping beauty )
I like the smile of yours ,
My mum said it too , you look like a sweet girl .
Thanks alot

Oh my god , i didn't know writing is so tiring

Ris , KY , XL , Xing Yee , Yetin , SC , Mei San , Sin Yee , Juan Yong
Hello girls ,
although I'm not that close with you guys but we have alot fun memories .
Those laughter from Kit Ying n Xing Yee , i dont know why they always laugh .
Why are you all always so happy hahhaha
Good luck in future !

last of all , Janice
Hi there , i know you will say this er xin but just bear with it lah .
In class , you are the closest to me .
You know when I am down , when I am super high , when I am not so down not so high .
I just feel so comfortable around you .
You let me understand that friendships is sometime we should treasure a lot ,
which i dont really do in the past 18 years . Im being honest .
You always there for me , supporting me for whatever i want to do .
Like you just there all the time .
You may be dumb sometimes in life , but in your studies you are just superior .
For as far as i know , you have a great determination , like if you want it , then you do it .
But i don't know what happen to your diet determination lah hahah , its just something science cannot explain it .
I think in my girls friend , you have the biggest appetite like  wow haha .
like you can eat 4 meals a day , 5 meals? i dont know .
I really thank you for everything you have done for me .
No matter in studies , life , or social . Its just too much .
In studies , you help me alot like you push me to study ,
I'm weak in studies , but you don't really mind .
In fact you always teach me during your half way thru memorizing your biology and chemistry .
I know you felt annoyed sometimes but you never show that expression , you just smile there and teach .
I felt bad sometimes haha
I can't balance up for what you have done for me , n what i have done for you .
Cause you did alot although you somehow annoying sarcastically tease me alot .
I don't mind though cause i can give you double back .
Dont always act tough and keeping everything in your dumb head .
You got alot of friends just tell them you are not okay .
Tell them you need them .
I have mixed feeling bout you but it's something i can't say .
Just thank you

BYE :)